Update

I love Photo II!
I was quite annoying today tho..I get so anxious when handling and developing film.
I'm pretty sure every one in the dark room wanted to hurt me.
The first shoot was horrible..I'm quite embarrassed by the photos I took.
Although I did print a 5x7 today of one of the photos..and I must say the focus is wonderful =].
Photography makes every thing balance out in my life.

Mr. EHS tickets went on sale today...Madness.

I've made a huge transition in my life over these past 2-3 years.
With the whole parent/family thing...Breaking away from friends..who weren't really friends..Washington D.C...
A lot of that time was spent by myself..without much outside advice/support.

For a time..and still kind of now..I find it very hard to connect and talk to others.
I used to talk way to much, in a loud animated manner.
But these past years have been filled with silence and doubt.

Yet today I caught a glimmer of my old self..It felt amazing.

I try to love myself for who I am, for everything that has shaped me..but there are parts about me that are so dark it scares me.
Not dark as in goth or anything..just as in empty.
Suicide I think about it quite often..but understand it is something I would never do.
I have too many dreams for my future..too many things i want to see..places to go.

Well, I've digressed.. what I'm trying to say is just by having two hours of photography every day I feel enlightened and refreshed. I really do love it. Yet I don't really pursue it outside of school. I think I should. I think I might.

It's time for bed.
Goodnight =]