Hoilday

I know this might surprise some people..
but..I really don't like Christmas.
Blah...
It just makes me feel even more lost and alone
...angry with my parents/family.

But I wish everyone a great Christmas.
My thoughts are out there for all those who are less fortunate then me!
Stay warm and enjoy the time spent with loved ones...(I don't know If I will be able to)

In the past four days I have worked some 30 or more hours..
Which for a part time employee..kicks my behind.
Tired..deprived of friendship
(My phone has been shut off)

Just feeling really lost and confused..typical for this time of year.
Colorado just now asked for my semester grades..so won't have an answer from them for at least another 3 weeks...I hate this

You know you take the time and energy to apply for early incentive..
BAh! it's been two months...

How can you have so much to say
but nothing to talk about???

I can.

let's talk about rejection
confusion
lies
manipulation
total disregard of you as a human being worth knowing.

2008:
Never been this hurt..felt this much pain...had my heart torn to shreds..before